March 21 of 2019 I read a proclamation post that was sent to me from above. Staci James wrote a moving piece about the loss of her son, Hagen.

Are you tired? Worn out? … Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life.

Very common questions from people in re‑covery is; I'm sober now, so what next? Will my life always be like this? Will I always walk on egg‑shells? Is there any fun in being sober? Ok so, you have found sobriety. You may have managed to put a few weeks, months or even a year on your recovery status. You want to be social, you want to have a life, but drugs and alcohol can no longer play apart. I understand these questions more than I understand most questions about sobriety. I understand it because, I get exactly where it comes from and I understand exactly why people ask. I understand why it seems so incomprehensible. I understand it because they were my questions when I first got clean. How does one vacation at the beach without tequi‑la, dinner without wine, brunch without cham‑pagne, party without shots? How do you not get silly drunk with friends? How do you not smoke pot at a concerts? How do you have fun sober?